A letter to Heaven

Dear Mamali,

When your anniversary gets close, I feel like writing about you but this time I felt like writing to you.
It's 10years since you left, and if you were off to some far away land to study or work, I'm sure i would have written to you often. Ironically you are off to a far away land, some call hereafter n some call heaven, and you are probably studying or doing something you find utmost pleasure in, so why haven't I written to you in 10 years? Maybe my mind couldn't comprehend writing a letter to someone who's address I didn't have. Well the mind can't comprehend a lot of things, but that doesn't mean those things aren't possible. So I decided to listen to my heart and write to you. Knowing you as well as i do, you already have access to my facebook and blog. :)

So whats up with u big guy? Do you miss us like we miss you? Whats it like there? Do you miss it here? Do you get to visit? What are your new friends like?

We are all well here. Mom n dad are good and remember you everyday. They have grown beautifully in the last 10 years.
Dad has transformed into a kind, compassionate, gentle young man and seeing this transformation has been a pleasure for me. Him and I talk for hours like you and I used to. I remember, shortly after you left, he told me that he knew i had lost my best friend and vowed to be my new best friend. Hats off! He kept his promise. His health is on n off but we are focusing on taking care of that too. Send him your love. I think some times he forgets how much you love him and that the little frictions between a father n son get dissolved by the love they share.

Mom is the champ that she always was. The last one year, she wakes up at dawn n goes for yoga with a new bunch of positive people in her life. Shes very excited about this new activity in her life and i am excited for her. She still spreads happiness where ever she goes and is a lot of fun. I play with her nonstop. I remember this was your favorite pass-time. I trouble her a lot too. I hide behind walls n scare her and its hilarious because she falls for it each time. Or tickling her until she screams. That's a complete stress-buster.

N me, i am well. Life is good. I had a few ups n downs but all is well now. Honestly i was a bit upset with you for leaving. In a way I guess I couldn't let you go, or couldn't accept that you were gone and since I couldn't really blame anyone else, I was angry at you. But not anymore. I am happy for you now. You have moved to a better place. Your real home. You know that I talk to you when times are tough and you always show me answers like you did when you were here. I think I am older than you only in age, but your soul is definitely older n wiser than me.
Work is alright but i don't plan to stay here for long. Lets just say I'm looking at this as a stepping stone for something i will enjoy more. Over all, I can tell you that I have found my happy place. :)

A decade sounds like a very long time but honestly some of your memories are so vivid, it doesn't feel so long ago. I hope they stay with me forever. They give me a sense of comfort, a sense of love, a sense of safety and of home.

If I want to write to you about the past decade, it might take an entire year and I'd still not be done. Something tells me, you are well aware of our last ten years so I won't blabber much. Especially since you were not a big fan of reading.

So I'll end my first letter by wishing you a happy 10th anniversary in your new world my sweet one. It was an honor to have spent 19years of my life with you. Those moments will be cherished for life and no person can ever fill your void.

You be happy n be love up there, that is how you always were. I will try n be the same down here. Lets celebrate your 10th heavenly birthday together.

I love you more than words can express!

Your sister and best buddy forever n ever,

Eyam :)